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ABOUT ME
Name: Mary
AKA: Sapphire Smoke
DOB: February 10, 1987
Sign: Aquarius
Heritage: English, Irish, French
Location: Portland, OR
Hometown: Gloucester, MA
Occupation: Exotic dancer
Orientation: Lesbian
Fandoms: Xena, Buffy, Angel, Leverage, Bones, Dollhouse, Skins, Harry Potter, Doctor Who, Rizzoli & Isles
OTPs: Buffy/Faith & Hardison/Parker/Eliot

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Header: cuzimastripper
Mood Theme: ponchogoblins

Notes About Unfinished Fan Fiction: Okay, so here's the deal: I'm bipolar. And no, not the kind that every damn psychiatrist in this world is diagnosing random children with just to sell meds - I mean the real kind. Thus, I have a tendency to become obsessed. Heavily so, in fact. They switch randomly and without any kind of warning. Some can last up to a year, some only a month. But the main thing is that my brain simply cannot focus on anything else, so I tend to not be able to write for any other fandom other than the one I'm currently focused on. That doesn't mean it won't switch back to one I was focused on previously, because that does happen a lot. I just don't know when. So be patient, please. I do, mainly, finish everything I do, as my fan fiction list proves since there are much more marked as complete than incomplete. So yeah, all I ask for is patience. Don't spaz comment on them asking when they'll be updated, that won't help. Thanks.

Title: With Your Favor, My Lady
Author: Sapphire Smoke cuzimastripper
Fandom: Merlin (TV)
Paring: Morgana/Morgause
Timeline: “The Sins of the Father”
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 1,814
Prompt: Morgana is going down on Morgause when she tells her they are sisters. Morgana doesn't stop.
Summary: Perhaps there were more appropriate ways to show Morgause that she had her favor, but Morgana could not think of any that were more satisfactory.
Warning: Unbeta’d.

( She was trying to speak, but Morgana wasn’t interested in words. )

Title: Samhain
Author: Sapphire Smoke cuzimastripper
Fandom: Merlin (TV)
Paring: Morgana/Morgause (brief mentioning of Morgana/Helios)
Timeline: “The Sword in the Stone, Part I”
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 18,000+
For: FuckYeahMerlinFemslash exchange
Prompt: Morgana/Morgause, Gwen/Morgana, or Gwen/Morgana/Morgause with a happy ending OR Story of a bi-or pansexual girl getting into a lesbian relationship.
Summary: Morgause returns from the dead due to a bargain struck with the Cailleach, but Morgana finds herself unhappy with the terms of the deal. Will she be able to save her sister’s soul, or will she end up dooming herself in the process?
Warning: Unbeta’d.
A/N: This story was meant to be no more than 5k words but it… uh, ran away from me a bit xD Clearly. I’m starting to think I don’t know the meaning of the word ‘short’.
Other Parts: Part One


( Part 2/2 )

Title: Samhain
Author: Sapphire Smoke cuzimastripper
Fandom: Merlin (TV)
Paring: Morgana/Morgause (brief mentioning of Morgana/Helios)
Timeline: “The Sword in the Stone, Part I”
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 18,000+
For: FuckYeahMerlinFemslash exchange
Prompt: Morgana/Morgause, Gwen/Morgana, or Gwen/Morgana/Morgause with a happy ending OR Story of a bi-or pansexual girl getting into a lesbian relationship.
Summary: Morgause returns from the dead due to a bargain struck with the Cailleach, but Morgana finds herself unhappy with the terms of the deal. Will she be able to save her sister’s soul, or will she end up dooming herself in the process?
Warning: Unbeta’d.
A/N: This story was meant to be no more than 5k words but it… uh, ran away from me a bit xD Clearly. I’m starting to think I don’t know the meaning of the word ‘short’.

( Part 1/2 )

GO TO PART TWO...

Title: Amphierotic Bloodlines
Author: Sapphire Smoke cuzimastripper
Beta(s): supershineygirl (chapter two), dolfynrider (chapter three & onwards)
Fandom: Harry Potter
Rating: NC-17
Length Thus Far: 240,893 words
Main Pairing: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Sub Pairings: Narcissa/Lucius, Narcissa/OC, Bellatrix/OC, Bellatrix/Rodolphus
Summary: Growing up in the 1960s in a family that expected nothing less than perfection, anything less than such was deemed unfit for a young woman of their status and was punished severely. A house that was classified as 'noble' had dark secrets hidden within those walls, a fear that only the people within experienced. The confusion young girls have growing up was more than intensified in there: it bordered on practically unbearable. This is a story about growing up, about surviving abuse, and about finding salvation and love from anyone you can, even if it’s from the last person on earth you know you should ever hold a deep affection for.
Warning(s): Lesbian incest, graphic child abuse, dubcon, sex between minors, addiction, anorexia nervosa, forced miscarriage, character death (minor), first chapter is un-beta’d
A/N: For NaNoWriMo 2010. This story is entirely from Narcissa’s POV (though not in first person) and will only include up to her graduation from Hogwarts. There will be a sequel later to cover her adult years, but for now I think this is more than enough.
Other Parts: PART ONE | PART TWO | PART THREE | PART FOUR | PART FIVE | PART SIX | PART SEVEN | PART EIGHT | PART NINE | PART TEN | PART ELEVEN | PART TWELVE | PART THIRTEEN | PART FOURTEEN | PART FIFTEEN | PART SIXTEEN | PART SEVENTEEN | PART EIGHTEEN | PART NINETEEN | PART TWENTY | PART TWENTY ONE | PART TWENTY TWO | PART TWENTY THREE | PART TWENTY FOUR | PART TWENTY FIVE | PART TWENTY SIX | PART TWENTY SEVEN | PART TWENTY EIGHT | PART TWENTY NINE | PART THIRTY | PART THIRTY ONE | PART THIRTY TWO

( Chapter Forty Eight )

Title: Amphierotic Bloodlines
Author: Sapphire Smoke cuzimastripper
Beta(s): supershineygirl (chapter two), dolfynrider (chapter three & onwards)
Fandom: Harry Potter
Rating: NC-17
Length Thus Far: 235,248 words
Main Pairing: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Sub Pairings: Narcissa/Lucius, Narcissa/OC, Bellatrix/OC, Bellatrix/Rodolphus
Summary: Growing up in the 1960s in a family that expected nothing less than perfection, anything less than such was deemed unfit for a young woman of their status and was punished severely. A house that was classified as 'noble' had dark secrets hidden within those walls, a fear that only the people within experienced. The confusion young girls have growing up was more than intensified in there: it bordered on practically unbearable. This is a story about growing up, about surviving abuse, and about finding salvation and love from anyone you can, even if it’s from the last person on earth you know you should ever hold a deep affection for.
Warning(s): Lesbian incest, graphic child abuse, dubcon, sex between minors, addiction, anorexia nervosa, forced miscarriage, character death (minor), first chapter is un-beta’d
A/N: For NaNoWriMo 2010. This story is entirely from Narcissa’s POV (though not in first person) and will only include up to her graduation from Hogwarts. There will be a sequel later to cover her adult years, but for now I think this is more than enough.
Other Parts: PART ONE | PART TWO | PART THREE | PART FOUR | PART FIVE | PART SIX | PART SEVEN | PART EIGHT | PART NINE | PART TEN | PART ELEVEN | PART TWELVE | PART THIRTEEN | PART FOURTEEN | PART FIFTEEN | PART SIXTEEN | PART SEVENTEEN | PART EIGHTEEN | PART NINETEEN | PART TWENTY | PART TWENTY ONE | PART TWENTY TWO | PART TWENTY THREE | PART TWENTY FOUR | PART TWENTY FIVE | PART TWENTY SIX | PART TWENTY SEVEN | PART TWENTY EIGHT | PART TWENTY NINE | PART THIRTY | PART THIRTY ONE

( Chapter Forty Seven )

GO TO PART THIRTY THREE...

Title: Amphierotic Bloodlines
Author: Sapphire Smoke cuzimastripper
Beta(s): supershineygirl (chapter two), dolfynrider (chapter three & onwards)
Fandom: Harry Potter
Rating: NC-17
Length Thus Far: 229,801 words
Main Pairing: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Sub Pairings: Narcissa/Lucius, Narcissa/OC, Bellatrix/OC, Bellatrix/Rodolphus
Summary: Growing up in the 1960s in a family that expected nothing less than perfection, anything less than such was deemed unfit for a young woman of their status and was punished severely. A house that was classified as 'noble' had dark secrets hidden within those walls, a fear that only the people within experienced. The confusion young girls have growing up was more than intensified in there: it bordered on practically unbearable. This is a story about growing up, about surviving abuse, and about finding salvation and love from anyone you can, even if it’s from the last person on earth you know you should ever hold a deep affection for.
Warning(s): Lesbian incest, graphic child abuse, dubcon, sex between minors, addiction, anorexia nervosa, forced miscarriage, character death (minor), first chapter is un-beta’d
A/N: For NaNoWriMo 2010. This story is entirely from Narcissa’s POV (though not in first person) and will only include up to her graduation from Hogwarts. There will be a sequel later to cover her adult years, but for now I think this is more than enough.
Other Parts: PART ONE | PART TWO | PART THREE | PART FOUR | PART FIVE | PART SIX | PART SEVEN | PART EIGHT | PART NINE | PART TEN | PART ELEVEN | PART TWELVE | PART THIRTEEN | PART FOURTEEN | PART FIFTEEN | PART SIXTEEN | PART SEVENTEEN | PART EIGHTEEN | PART NINETEEN | PART TWENTY | PART TWENTY ONE | PART TWENTY TWO | PART TWENTY THREE | PART TWENTY FOUR | PART TWENTY FIVE | PART TWENTY SIX | PART TWENTY SEVEN | PART TWENTY EIGHT | PART TWENTY NINE | PART THIRTY

( Chapter Forty Six )

Title: Amphierotic Bloodlines
Author: Sapphire Smoke cuzimastripper
Beta(s): supershineygirl (chapter two), dolfynrider (chapter three & onwards)
Fandom: Harry Potter
Rating: NC-17
Length Thus Far: 223,450 words
Main Pairing: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Sub Pairings: Narcissa/Lucius, Narcissa/OC, Bellatrix/OC, Bellatrix/Rodolphus
Summary: Growing up in the 1960s in a family that expected nothing less than perfection, anything less than such was deemed unfit for a young woman of their status and was punished severely. A house that was classified as 'noble' had dark secrets hidden within those walls, a fear that only the people within experienced. The confusion young girls have growing up was more than intensified in there: it bordered on practically unbearable. This is a story about growing up, about surviving abuse, and about finding salvation and love from anyone you can, even if it’s from the last person on earth you know you should ever hold a deep affection for.
Warning(s): Lesbian incest, graphic child abuse, dubcon, sex between minors, addiction, anorexia nervosa, forced miscarriage, character death (minor), first chapter is un-beta’d
A/N: For NaNoWriMo 2010. This story is entirely from Narcissa’s POV (though not in first person) and will only include up to her graduation from Hogwarts. There will be a sequel later to cover her adult years, but for now I think this is more than enough.
Other Parts: PART ONE | PART TWO | PART THREE | PART FOUR | PART FIVE | PART SIX | PART SEVEN | PART EIGHT | PART NINE | PART TEN | PART ELEVEN | PART TWELVE | PART THIRTEEN | PART FOURTEEN | PART FIFTEEN | PART SIXTEEN | PART SEVENTEEN | PART EIGHTEEN | PART NINETEEN | PART TWENTY | PART TWENTY ONE | PART TWENTY TWO | PART TWENTY THREE | PART TWENTY FOUR | PART TWENTY FIVE | PART TWENTY SIX | PART TWENTY SEVEN | PART TWENTY EIGHT | PART TWENTY NINE

( Chapter Forty Five )

GO TO PART THIRTY ONE...
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Title: Amphierotic Bloodlines
Author: Sapphire Smoke cuzimastripper
Beta(s): supershineygirl (chapter two), dolfynrider (chapter three & onwards)
Fandom: Harry Potter
Rating: NC-17
Length Thus Far: 217,334 words
Main Pairing: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Sub Pairings: Narcissa/Lucius, Narcissa/OC, Bellatrix/OC, Bellatrix/Rodolphus
Summary: Growing up in the 1960s in a family that expected nothing less than perfection, anything less than such was deemed unfit for a young woman of their status and was punished severely. A house that was classified as 'noble' had dark secrets hidden within those walls, a fear that only the people within experienced. The confusion young girls have growing up was more than intensified in there: it bordered on practically unbearable. This is a story about growing up, about surviving abuse, and about finding salvation and love from anyone you can, even if it’s from the last person on earth you know you should ever hold a deep affection for.
Warning(s): Lesbian incest, graphic child abuse, dubcon, sex between minors, addiction, anorexia nervosa, forced miscarriage, character death (minor), first chapter is un-beta’d
A/N: For NaNoWriMo 2010. This story is entirely from Narcissa’s POV (though not in first person) and will only include up to her graduation from Hogwarts. There will be a sequel later to cover her adult years, but for now I think this is more than enough.
Other Parts: PART ONE | PART TWO | PART THREE | PART FOUR | PART FIVE | PART SIX | PART SEVEN | PART EIGHT | PART NINE | PART TEN | PART ELEVEN | PART TWELVE | PART THIRTEEN | PART FOURTEEN | PART FIFTEEN | PART SIXTEEN | PART SEVENTEEN | PART EIGHTEEN | PART NINETEEN | PART TWENTY | PART TWENTY ONE | PART TWENTY TWO | PART TWENTY THREE | PART TWENTY FOUR | PART TWENTY FIVE | PART TWENTY SIX | PART TWENTY SEVEN | PART TWENTY EIGHT
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( Chapter Forty Four )

GO TO PART THIRTY...

Title: Amphierotic Bloodlines
Author: Sapphire Smoke cuzimastripper
Beta(s): supershineygirl (chapter two), dolfynrider (chapter three & onwards)
Fandom: Harry Potter
Rating: NC-17
Length Thus Far: 211,057 words
Main Pairing: Bellatrix/Narcissa
Sub Pairings: Narcissa/Lucius, Narcissa/OC, Bellatrix/OC, Bellatrix/Rodolphus
Summary: Growing up in the 1960s in a family that expected nothing less than perfection, anything less than such was deemed unfit for a young woman of their status and was punished severely. A house that was classified as 'noble' had dark secrets hidden within those walls, a fear that only the people within experienced. The confusion young girls have growing up was more than intensified in there: it bordered on practically unbearable. This is a story about growing up, about surviving abuse, and about finding salvation and love from anyone you can, even if it’s from the last person on earth you know you should ever hold a deep affection for.
Warning(s): Lesbian incest, graphic child abuse, dubcon, sex between minors, addiction, anorexia nervosa, forced miscarriage, character death (minor), first chapter is un-beta’d
A/N: For NaNoWriMo 2010. This story is entirely from Narcissa’s POV (though not in first person) and will only include up to her graduation from Hogwarts. There will be a sequel later to cover her adult years, but for now I think this is more than enough.
Other Parts: PART ONE | PART TWO | PART THREE | PART FOUR | PART FIVE | PART SIX | PART SEVEN | PART EIGHT | PART NINE | PART TEN | PART ELEVEN | PART TWELVE | PART THIRTEEN | PART FOURTEEN | PART FIFTEEN | PART SIXTEEN | PART SEVENTEEN | PART EIGHTEEN | PART NINETEEN | PART TWENTY | PART TWENTY ONE | PART TWENTY TWO | PART TWENTY THREE | PART TWENTY FOUR | PART TWENTY FIVE | PART TWENTY SIX | PART TWENTY SEVEN

( Chapter Forty Two )

( Chapter Forty Three )

GO TO PART TWENTY NINE...